So I have officially decided what I want to do with this blog and I need all ya all's help (since I have such a large audience reading this ;)
I have decided I want to be a more open person. I know this might be a shock to you but I'm pretty darn quiet and with drawn in social situations. In high school a couple friends called me "Bubble Girl". I've built some pretty high thick walls and it's past time for them to come down. Not sure how this process is going to happen I just know it needs to.
Being the way I have hasn't helped a darn person and that's just a crime. I'm sure I've got something somewhere in me to offer this world. No one is put here just to take up space right? Time to figure out what my talents are and to not be afraid of them. Any ideas on how to help are more than welcome!!
Watch out world this is the beginning...
Attempt to be more open #1:
I am scared to death of failure. It's actually really debilitating. I won't start projects or finish them because I don't want to screw it up. Years ago I started a painting for my grandma of a hibiscus flower. It doesn't look too bad at this point. All I have left to do on it is paint the stamen and I haven't been able to do it because it'll make or break the picture. I really don't want to screw it up! I know all this sounds silly but it makes sense in my mind. I love photography and thoroughly enjoy all parts of the process but am so timid on taking pictures of people because it's never "perfect".
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This is amazing. I've been thinking about the same thing. On my blog I have an easy out. I can always blog about my kids, but I frequently leave out how I'm doing and what's really going on in life. I've thought about how I really should open up more and let people see the real me. I'm going to have to make this one of my goals as well. You know, just from this, it sounds like you're a bit of a perfectionist (something I know that I am), my mom told me something that really helped me. I was making my first quilt and getting frustrated about how I couldn't get everything to come out perfectly. She told me that quilting is art, and art is never perfect, that's what makes it fun and interesting. I imagine that painting and photography is the same way. Some of your favorite ones are going to be things that are less than perfect, but visually interesting and something to look at. As someone who has had you take pictures of my family, I can attest that you are VERY talented. One of my absolute favorite pictures is one that you took and me and Elyse when we weren't posed. It captured more of what our family is about. We weren't sitting perfectly smiling at the camera, but that's why I love it. BTW - you're gorgeous! That picture of you on the sidebar is beautiful.
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